I am normally a girl with a stone heart.

   Love is not a simple subject for me. Sometimes I believe I have given up on it. But sometimes, I know that I haven't, because I suddenly realize certain things....

   How can I do this to myself? After being hurt so many times. How can I fall for him.

   He's almost my brother. I trust him with absolutely everything. And I love him with all my heart. I lvoe him so much that it hurts.

   But do I love him more as I do, say, my blood brother?

   I hate this answer, but I know it's true.

   I do love him.

   I love him. I want him to be...mine. And I want him to feel the same.

   But he's just as afraid as I am.

   And...does he feel the same?

   Could he ever feel the same?

   For a girl so much younger, but so alike to him.... Could he love someone like me? Could he love a bitch, a fearful, untrusting, vulnerable girl? 

   Is he the one who will not tear me apart, like so many others?

   So many questions.

   And one, simple, and terrifying answer.

   What happens, will happen. And it is no where within my power to stop it.

   (Please, no flames. This is straight from my heart, no editing to seem fictional. This is happening. This is something that's killing me slowly.)